LOVE!

"I love you, dont you see

you stole my heart and 1 2 3

I love you, yes its true

you stole my heart and im gonna steal yours too."

AHAHHAHAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Im so fucking in love. my heart just feels huge!!!

-Dan (head over heels in love)

lee's here!

i should have posted this earlier but i was busy getting ready. Lee's here, got here around 1. Weve been having fun haha. hes playing xbox now so i have to be quick.

I told my parents a friend from school was visiting for the weekend. just a friend. lees fine with it. we just have to be more quiet. when lee leaves sunday, maybe ill tell them. idk yet.

i havent told my friends anything because, well, just about all my friends are on vacation or busy. Aaron is working at his school, 3 of my friends are on vacation, and the rest are here and there. if i see them, I probably wont tell them were dating, just that were friends. They will probably figure it out tho.

ok gotta run

flirting with boys

I was at the store returning some shit for my mom, and the dude working there was really cute, and he was totally flirting with me. I was sure he was gonna ask me out. then at blockbuster, some guy who worked there who was really fucking cute, came up to me and asked if i needed anything. I said no but he just started talking to me about other shit that had nothing to do with movies. He was totally flirting. And i just keep thinking, is there like some scent im giving off to all these gay guys that lets them know im gay? why hasnt this happened before? well it sure is nice to know people think im cute.

my ego is too big

also, been talking to lee. looks like hes coming over this weekend. He wants to come friday and leave sunday. Im all for it. But, 2 things. 1: i havent told my parents yet. Ive been thinking a lot about just telling them. Being like, my friend from school is coming to visit for the weekend, and weve kinda been.......dating. idk, thoughts? and 2: my friends dont know, and lee wants to meet them. i have no idea how im suppose to drop that bomb. Like, just telling them my friend is visiting and then being like "were actually dating" idk. help?

so yeah, any advise would be much appreciated. u guys rock. ill be on msn today at some point so we should all talk or somethin. idk. im in a wacky mood.

wonderful time at lee's

Lee's was really fun

Left home around 10 and got to lees close to 1030. It was just him home because his parents were still at work. We had the house to ourselves and we fooled around for a while. it was fun. he has a nice house and the most comfortable bed. We hung out for a while and his mom came home around 4. We met and she gave me a hug and was really nice. like, she was just a really sweet person. She asked me a lot of questions. Around 530 is when lee's dad came home. I was pretty nervous to meet him. Lee was like "Dad, this is my boyfriend Dan." and i was like o shit. So he extended his hand and i shook it. He was ok. So lee's mom ordered a pizza and we all sat and talked. Lee's dad also asked me a lot of questions and one of them was "did u play any sports in highschool?" so i was like "yeah i played football. I was a reciever". right after i said that his eyes lit up and he like turned into a different person. He was awesome after that. We talked about football and stuff. lee told me later that he was never into sports and his dad was treating me like the son he never had. kinda sucks, but lee didnt care. him and his dad have i guess a strained relationship. Anyway dinner was done and lee and i went on a walk for a bit. We went to park and sat on a bench and just enjoyed being with the other person. We came back and watched Se7en, one of my favorite movies. It was getting kinda late so we went to his room. We started making out and it was getting pretty intense. while we were fooling around, lee was like "i want u to fuck me" so he grabbed a condom and, yeah, we had sex. It was both of ours first time. It was amazing. and lee loved it. Anyway, after that, lee fell asleep but i couldnt, so i got up and talked to matt for a while. he kinda helped me put things into perspective, and i felt a lot better about things. So i went back to bed with lee.

We woke up around 10 and went downstairs where his mom was making breakfast and his dad was reading the paper. We sat down and lee's mom was like "good morning you two. sleep well?" and me and lee were like yup. and lees dad was like "you two sure made a lot of noise last night" and me and lee were like, fuck. im sure we were beat red in the face. Breakfast was good and i left after that. got home around 12.

over all id say it was a great weekend. i feel good about me and lee. and im pretty sure his parents liked me. lee said they did so yeah.

anyway, thats my trip. later.

going to lee's!

so it looks like im going to lee's tomorrow. He was gonna come here but i guess his dad found out and didnt want lee coming to visit some boy without meeting him first. I guess he isnt as cool about the whole boyfriend thing as his mom. So im going to him! ill be there most of tomorrow, and then be home on friday which is when aaron comes home. So yeah....

....about aaron. I just, i feel like with me and lee, its awesome and i love lee a lot and hes a great boyfriend and all, but i just still feel so connected to aaron. its like, ugh. its hard to explain. Like it feels like lee is much more emotionally invested in me than i am in him because of the whole aaron thing. like, i hold aaron so fucking high, its hard for anyone to like, compare to him. make sense?

I think i should talk to aaron about the whole thing. and lee. idk any thoughts?

And should i get a twitter? would people follow?

someones got BIEBER FEVER!!!

so yeah, i admit it, i think justin bieber is adorable. I dont care for his music, but holy shit hes cute. Here are some pictures.

He might as well be suckin my dick

Toooooooo fucking cute

I like to think theres nothing under the towel

He can toss around the football with me any day

Just standing there looking sexy. yum

OOOOO some cute bieber butt!

Last but not least, Justins extremely cute feet

So yeah, just some pics of justin for ya. in other news, i really miss lee. he said he was gonna try to come over sometime soon, so im hopeful. I also lost my ipod, and im pissed about it.

im home

so i got home thursday. put all my shit in my room and was gonna put everything back but, its still in a huge pile. ive just been lazy. Lee got home yesterday.

Interesting thing tho. Thursday when we were saying goodbye, he told me that he told his mom about me. And like, i wasnt mad or anything, but idk it was just like....idk. He was like "i was talking to my mom and she asked if i had met someone, and i kinda told her about u." So i was like "oh....cool. what did she say?" and he just went on about how she was happy for him and i guess lee told her everything. like EVERYTHING. and at first i was like, nervous, but now its kinda a freeing feeling. like, lees mom knows, u know?

idk if any of that makes sense. im kinda being rushed by my mom to go shopping for nice clothes.

one more thing. Do u guys like hearing about me and lee? if u guys are sick of hearing about it then i can stop. its just this blog is about my life, and lee is in my life so yeah. just let me know. sorry if this post is weird. ive got a lot on my mind.