cant get him out of my head

So Ive only seen aaron once in the past week, which is a very long time for us.  And i think because of this, ive been thinking about him a lot.  Hes always on my mind.  Like ill just randomly smell him.  ugh.  he was even in my dream last night.  we were running through some castle, laughing and stuff.  and i was like "you mean everything to me"   and he said "you mean everything to me too".  then we got in trouble for running inside.  yea, so wtf does that mean.

so yea, got a busy week ahead of me.  a bunch of college shit i have to do.  ugh.  

ok, later

i miss mirrorboy

i miss mirrorboy.  a lot.  that is all.

everyones upset

everyone upset.  blog world has stopped dead in its tracks.  Well mirrorboy, i love u.  and jake, i have nothing to say.  Man this sucks. 

mirrorboy didnt even see his gift :(

so i saw aaron today.  we went to some little get together.  we hugged and played around a bit.  but he was being really annoying.  so i left early.  i was gonna ask him out(we go on "dates" all the time), but i never got the chance.  i will tomorrow.

well, blog world sucks right now.  later.

its been a while

sorry for the long absence.  Ive had a lot on my plate and i felt like i just needed a break from blog world.  This might be a long post, just a heads up.

So my last day of school was thursday.  We got our cap and gowns and yearbooks.  We also took some stupid class picture.  My mom wants me to order it so im like yeah if you pay for it.  After school i went out and got some dinner with friends.  It was delicious.  

friday was busy.  Met some friends and played football.  I kicked ass and scored 6 touchdowns.  6 touchdowns=36 points.  Yeah, im pretty good(ego boost).  Then hung out for the rest of the day.  Aaron had some surgery on his back and said he couldnt do anything for a while.  I was like meh.

saturday, sunday, and monday were much of the same.  Shit with friends and relaxing at home.

So i havnt seen aaron in a while.  I miss him.  I called him yesterday to see how he was and he seemed out of it.  Maybe its for the best tho.  Maybe i needed the break.  whatevs.

Since ive been absent for a while, ive missed a few things.  like mirrorboys birthday.  Seems like pictures are what people have been giving, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRRORBOY!!!!  I really wouldnt be where I am in blog world if it were not for your friendship.  I love you lots!!! 

So yea to everyone who helped me out in the last post, thanks.  It gave me some stuff to think about.  Ill be back to posting every day or so.  cya

ps.  Matt, im sorry we havnt talked in a while.  i know how u hate it when we dont talk for a long time.  ill be on later i hope.

deep

So ive been thinking a lot about life and my future and stuff.  Im done with highschool in 2 days and it just got me thinking.  Thinking about my future, my past, what i wanna do with my life.  Its just all coming up so fast.  Like, I still dont know what i want to do for a profession.  Thats something i need to figure out soon.  And my love life.  Like I really want to have a son, and be the most kick ass dad in the world.  I wanna be able to take him to football games and coach his little league bass ball team and teach him how to throw a football or how to always be a gentleman.  I wanna teach him about the birds and the bees.  I wanna teach him the ways of life.  But i wouldnt want to have a boyfriend.  Id want a wife.  Id want a normal family to raise my son.  But i dont like girls.  So yeah it sucks.  Its probably never gonna happen unless i like, adopt.  But i dont want to adopt.  I want my own kid.  Which really cant happen unless  all of a sudden I become straight, which isnt gonna happen.  Theres just so much shit about life that sucks.  I dont wanna leave Aaron.  I dont wanna leave my friends.  I dont want to grow up.  

sorry if it sounded like i was whining.  its just all this stuff has been whirling around in my head for a while and i guess today it all came crashing through.  Idk.     

could have been better

so aaron came over tonight.  not for real long, just about an hour.  I was hoping to get like close to him and shit, like flirt and stuff, but we just watched tv.  I was a little disappointed, but i cant complain.  Just being near him makes me feel good.  haha his belly was grumbling and I just wanted to go over to him and start kissing it.  haha how weird of me.

Also I was at the store today, and I saw this really cute boy wearing a soccer uniform.  I was interested and I followed him aroung a bit.  He was all sweaty and cute.  I just wanted to walk up to him in front of his parents and be like  "wanna go out with me?" haha 

So yea i realized I owe you guys another history of aaron.  Sorry for the delay its just im not real sure what to write about.  Ill figure it out.  

Writing this post feels weird.  idk why.  It just doesnt feel like its me writing.  whatevs.  I got up to early.  

OMG!!!

sorry for the long absence.  ive been busy.  I got school projects of the butt, and i have like 5 days to finish them all. yuck.  I hate school.

ok so yesterday i was driving to my friends house.  So i stop at a red light and look to me left, and there is this amazingly cute guy driving.  He had to be 16 or 17.  Omg he was delicious.  He caught me looking and i bashfully turned away.  But damn, i would have loved to teach him a thing or two about making love.  haha how cheesy of me.

So then, on the way back from my friends house, i was driving and i looked in my left side mirror, and this guy was driving his son, and his son was so fucking hot.  His hair was just amazing.  He kinda looked like Shaun White, only better.  So they're in the lane to my left and they're merging into my lane, and im still staring at this kid(and the road, dont worry), when he all of a sudden blows me a kiss.  I SWEAR!!!!!  i was freaking out.  I like gasped for air.  haha.  it was nuts.  They turned left a bit later so i lost him but boy oh boy, it made me feel good.

So yea thats about it.  I havent been sleeping well so i think im gonna take a nap.  Nothing like a nap at 10 in the morning.