feeling good

after i posted my last post, ive felt amazing. i feel like a new person. it crazy how writing shit down and sharing it can help. i havent felt this good in a long time.

So i got back from my friends cabin yesterday. had a lot of fun. But im really glad to be home. Aarons on vacation for a week which kinda sucks, but it'll be fine. I was thinking about it earlier and like, i dont know how i feel about him anymore. Like i know i still love him and all, but i dont think im still 'in' love with him. Like, i dont feel the same way about him. i feel more like a friend than anything else, which is weird. For the past 4 years ive considered him to basically my boyfriend. Idk, its different.

before i go, i just wanted to apologize to mirrorboy for personal reasons. babe, im really sorry and i love u.

ok thats it for now.

the whole aaron story

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sorry

sorry i havent been around as much lately. its been hard to come on here. the whole aaron thing has really done a number on me. i almost wrote about it 2 nights ago but i got sick to my stomach and almost threw up. its really hard for me to think about.

im sure most of u are pissed that its taking me so long and im sorry. i just cant write it rght now. please understand. soon tho. before this weekend. I PROMISE!!!!

eh

so im not gonna do the answer post. it seems there was a lack of interest from all my readers. And it got me thinking. do people even like me? idk im just thinking a lot lately.

ill post the aaron story soon. hopefully by monday.

questions part 2!!!

ok so i was reading landyns new post where he answers all those questions, and i wanna do it. I know, i already did it, but that was when i had like 5 followers. But now i have 46, so it should be better.

so heres the plan for the week. you have from now until friday at 10 pm to ask as many questions as you like. email them to me or comment them on this. then on saturday ill post the answers and on sunday, ill update u all on the aaron situation.

SO LET THE QUESTIONS BEGIN!!!!!!!!





ps: i feel really good right now. =)

feeling better

so im not gonna say anything about the aaron incident yet. i was going to, but when i think about writing it, i just cant do it. dont worry, ill tell all of you, just not yet. i need some more time to clear my head.

i will tell u that its kinda weird having someone know. its even weirder when its the boy you've been in love with for 4 years. yea, its bittersweet.

sorry ive been kinda lame with my posts lately. life has just been weird. i need some time to just......work shit out. Not only with aaron but with myself.

i promise that by the end of the week, ill have a nice long post for ya.

later

out

i cam out to aaron. like, literally came out. i said the words "im gay". it wasnt planned at all. he kinda caught me trying to record him showering on my phone, and i was like "i think we should talk". so i spilled my guts.

the story is much longer, and i will get around to posting it. but for right now, this is all im gonna say.

sorry about the absence.