Tuesday, March 15, 2011


i took a long drive a few nights ago. it was really foggy and really warm. I thought about a lot of things.

1) How different my life would be if aaron became my boyfriend.
2) I cant decide if im actually happy with my life.
3) I sometimes feel like im not really going to amount to anything.
4) I wish all gay boys wore like this rainbow ring around their fingers. make things much easier.
5) what really is the fucking point?

im in a strange mood. i havent felt this completely....useless...in a long time. i feel like i have no control over anything. no matter what, shit will always happen. with or without me. i dont know folks. i really just dont know.........