Well here I am in my bore fuck history class. Get ready for more randomness.
I met this boy yesterday. Didn't get a name but we shared some small talk. He's gorgeous. He's like the popular kid who's friends with everyone. He's so nice and calm about things. We talked at breakfast this morning. He has an earing in his left ear. He's just so....."pretty".
It's hard to explain. He might very possibly be gay. Like 80% of the boys living in my dorm are gay and guess what, he lives in my dorm.
I woke up with a throbbing boner again this morning. It was like mad at me. So I gave it what it wanted. It seems like mondays and Wednesdays are my big ass boner days.
It's really cold outside and I guess that means the school likes to crank up the fucking heat. It's like a fuck sauna in this son of a bitch. UGH!
I havnt been home in a month. That's the longest I've ever been away from home. Do I miss it? Not really. But I do miss my car. I love driving and it's been a while. I'm going home next weekend and I'm pretty excited to go driving.
I'm way to picky. I can always find a fault in people. I'm to judgemental. I need to be more open minded. But that's a hard thing to do. It's just something I do naturally. Can someone just rewire the way they think? I dint think so. The only person I've ever found to be absolutly perfect is Aaron. And I know all of u are gonna be like "no ones perfect". That may be true for you, but Aaron was perfect in every single way. And that's kinda what i'm talking about. To me, he was perfect. And I think deep down, I'm looking for someone like him. Someone perfect. That's why I'm having so much trouble finding someone. I need to come to terms with the fact that I probably will never find anyone like him. Just something I'm gonna need to work on, or I'll just end up chasing after something that isn't there.
I've been avoiding the fact for a long time, but I really miss Aaron. Everytime he pops in my head I just ignore it, but it's there. I miss him. I miss the way he smiles, the way he smells, the way he feels. I even miss the way he pisses me off. Fuck
I shouldn't have started thinking about him. Now I'm all depressed.
I'll talk to u guys later.
It's true what they say too. Only love can break your heart.
8 years ago