summers over in a month and then im back off to school. it went by way to fast. what did i manage to accomplish? nothing. i didnt get a job. i just sat around being lazy. i literally was the most insignificant thing on the earth. i didnt contribute to society at all. im just a bum. a lazy fucking bum with no prospects at all. my future is doomed. im going to end up bagging groceries for the rest of my life.
im surrounded by all these people who love me. my friends, family, lee. but for some reason i feel so fucking alone. i feel like i have no one who i can really talk to about things. i can only tell you guys certain things. i can only tell my friends certain things. i can only tell lee certain things. i need someone who i can tell everything to. im tired of living so many different lives. its killing me.
i just want to cry.
Oh Dan you can always talk to me about anything.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're not a bum. I was just kidding. You're in school, you shouldn't have to work. Focus on school, you'll be fine.
Even though you already know it I love you.
Remember when life gets tough, there is always Mexico.
*hugs*
ReplyDeletewub u
Keep strong, guy.
ReplyDeleteI can relate very much to this... I have the same feeling most of the time, and sadly I have no remedy for the feeling.
ReplyDeleteAs a long time reader of your blog you are more than welcome to talk to me about whatever...
ok first off i am always kinda stand offish about your blog funny thing is the reason why isnt you its because your lee sounds a lot like a long time ago friend of mine named none other then lee so sometimes reading about yours reminds me and you know how we teens can be set off so easily...now i need to make a comment about the post all i can say and i know it sounds lame but sadness was given as a promise for it means there will be better things to come thought it is not all right now thats ok because it will be... so hang in there dude i know its hard need someone to talk to i can be reached at dpking32@yahoo.com (msn) and yeah just go with the flow...trust me i know the feeling of feeling like you are just rotting doing nothing it sucks Love<~Peter~>
ReplyDeletep.s. sorry for such a long comment
I know this doesnt make you feel better, but everyone goes through a time when they dont know what they want or what to do with their life. Thats what you should be doing right now. You dont have to have the answers right now, you just have to try.
ReplyDeleteThe beginning of your post says youve prob been thinking too much. Thinking is a good thing-- being open and honest with yourself is also good. You just have to figure out how to take the bad stuff and turn it into good stuff.
As I said on twitter-- of course please talk to me if you want to talk. As someone who is recently out of college (well still in grad school, but i already started my career), I might be good for some career advice :-) If not, thats cool too.
Take care Dan. Alot of ppl care about you on here!
Much Love,
Steve
Dan!
ReplyDeleteYou're still sooooooo young! You have plenty of time to find your direction in life. Bumming around for one summer isn't the end of the world. Really.
I'm feeling just like you most of the time and I'm 12 years older! Now that's something to cry about!
(((HUGS)))
-Dean