Who wants to here some good news and bad news? good news first? sounds good to me.
Good news- im in love
Bad news- im in love with aaron
its only fucking been 3 weeks and im fucking in love with him again. i can feel it deep inside my tummy. Its real. Its fucking real, and i hate myself. Why the fuck is this happening? When i first saw him over break it was nice, but as break progressed, it got worse. i wanted to see him everyday. I wanted to hear his voice, to touch him, to joke around with him. And now hes gone. he left earlier today. I slept over at his house last night, and he took off his shit when he went to bed. my god hes beautiful. every part of him takes my breath away. hes so soft. he smells so good. hes one of the nicest people i know. I feel like i cant go on living without him. I want him so bad. but i cant have him, and that hurts more than anything.
what am i suppose to do? what the fuck am i suppose to do? It hurts so bad. This is the most depressed ive been in a long time. What the FUCK am i suppose to do? im fucking CRYING right now! WHY!?!?!?! i wish i could go back it time and prevent me from ever meeting him. They say that its better to have love lost than to never have loved at all. I disagree. having love lost is the worse feeling in the world.