so lee stayed over for a while this week and on wednesday lee said something that made me think about our future together. We were at the mall in sears walking past the washing machines when lee stopped.
lee: do u think were gonna be able to afford a nice washing machine when were married?
i was pretty surprised. i really didnt know how to answer. so later when we got back to my place, i asked him about it.
me: so, we're getting married?
me: u said earlier in the mall we were getting married and buying nice washing machines
lee: o yeah. idk i just kinda said it. have u never thought about it?
me: about us getting married?
me: not really no
lee: oh. well i was thinking about it a few days ago.
lee: well i really like u obviously and i feel like we really connect. Like, i think we should move in together next year.
lee: sorry. forget i said anything.
me: no no dont be sorry. its just ive never really thought about this before. its all pretty new thinking.
lee: i understand. will u think about it? its only the seed on an idea.
me: ill definitely think about it.
so heres me thinking about it.
i love lee. i would love nothing more than to be with him all day everyday. but moving in together is huge. marriage is huge. now if we have an argument, we have our own houses to cool off at. like, i can leave and he can leave. but once we move in together, we are always together. i also feel like once we move in together, thats it. im locked into this relationship. which is fine i guess. idk.
not sure what to do.
8 years ago