future of blogland

Thanks to all the wonderful comments. They all made a lot of sense. Hopefully ill man up and

do something about the overlapping thing soon. idk. life is hard.

So after i read Mirrorboys post about how his life in blogland is coming to an end, it got me thinking. Who's gonna take over as king of blog world? I mean, thats a huge responsibility. I think mirrorboy should appoint some one. or maybe blogworld can just exist without a king. Is mirrorboy even king? idk what im saying. One things certain tho. When morrorboy leaves, it will be a sad, sad day.

So i was surfing the web and i cam across some pictures. U know whos looking hot?.....

cole sprouse. hes looking yummy.

so steve, im tired of missing you on msn, so pick a day when you know you can talk, and ill be on. SOund good?

a lot of shit

So yesterday my family had some old family friends over. It was my family, family A and Family B. So three families all together. So heres some history.

Family A: Back when I lived in my other house, I was best friends with logan, who is the son in family A. We were like, tight as fuck. We did everything together. He was the first boy i fooled around with. And a while after that we kinda drifted apart. He went the skateboard punk way and i went the football athlete way. Then when i moved to my current house, which was across town, we basically stopped being friends. This was like, 5 years ago.

Family B: Lauren, my first girlfriend, is the daughter in family B. My parents knew theres a long time ago and then use kids were introduced and yada yada yada. So i dont really remember much, cause i was like 13-14, but we were in Lauren's room and we were fooling around and her dad walked in on us. It was awkward, and i guess i repressed that memory.

Ok so all of the families were together after years of not seeing each other. The parents were all upstairs drinking and having fun, and all the kids were in the basement. It wasnt as awkward as i thought it would be, but i would always think to myself "we did gay shit together" or "her dad walked in on us." And it was just kinda weird. Like, i know they both remember, and im sure they were thinking about it too. And then later in the night all the parents and kids were together and i would look at laurens dad and be like, shit, he knows what we did, what does he think about me?

It was just an interesting evening. Just thought id share that with you.

Another thing that i was thinking about earlier was like how everyone sees me as this kid who plays basketball and football and tries to act all tough and shit, but then when im alone in my room, i drool over naked boys and dream about falling in love. Its like, im living in two different worlds that are always kept apart, and never overlap. But i kinda want them to at some point overlap. I want to be at the mall and have everyone see me as i am, a sports fanatic and manly man, but i want to be there with my boyfriend, holding hands and being all in love. I hope that makes sense. Idk. Im just in a writing mood.

Ok well, i have some checks to cash and some shit to do, so thats all from me. I better get some comments. This thing took me an hour to write.

friends

So I hope everyone had a merry christmas and a happy hanaka(spelling?)

i got some dvds and some shirts and all that. I didnt really ask for much so whatevs. i did get close to 500 bucks tho, so yay.

So the other day, i was with all my old friends from high school. It was the first time we had all gotten together. So at first im sitting there having a good time, but after a while i start getting really annoyed. So i look around at them all laughing at some stupid story and i ask myself "these are my friends?" It was like, wtf happened to all of them. They've all changed, and i dont like the new them. And i mean, i dont really care. Its just wtf happened to al of them. So i just make fun of them all the time, and it works out fine, but i miss the old them. Oh well.

Ok, hope everyone is good. I got some shit to do.

dont be mad...

im not closing my blog. It was a combination of me wanting to see how people reacted, and to see what it was like to feel free from the whole thing. And let me tell ya, not having to really worry about my blog felt good. but i missed it.

And to the 3 people who sent me emails, thank you a lot. And thanks to all the comments, i was really considering shutting this down. Now im not. Someone close to me told me that they think ive recently been writing for the wrong reasons, and i agree. i need to go back to my normal writing. i dont really know what that is, but ill figure it out.

As for the future, im not gonna be shutting this blog down any time soon. and when i do, ill be sure to tell u why. im not gonna leave u hanging.

its over

im done. blogs closed.

quick update

well im going home tomorrow. cant fucking wait. i really needed a break. me and my room mate were getting sick of eachother. whatevs. 3 weeks will do me good. so us good.

so im gonna jack off soon so ill talk to u later.

pros and cons

I got a lovely email from Biki a little while back. She talked about my situation with Tyler and asked me what was the worse thing that would happen if I asked him out. It really got me thinking. What is the worse thing? So I'm gonna weigh the pros and cons and you guys get to comment with your thoughts. Sound good?

Pros
-get a boyfriend
-have sex for the first time in 4 years
-if the bf thing doesn't work out, maybe get a good friend
-see what it feels like to have someone love me as much as I love them.

Cons
-he says no

ok well anyone else have any? Had a hard time thinking of cons. There really is only one. He says no. Really kinda helps the whole "just ask him out" argument.

Thanksgiving

So thanksgiving break was good. Got home home wednesday and had lunch with some friends. Hung out with Aaron for a while. Went to his house and got dinner. He looked really good. Cute as fuck.

Thursday was thanksgiving and me and the family went to my grandparents house. My grandpa was being a dick and my mom was getting pissed so when we were leaving she told my brother and sister and I to take a good look around the house because it was going to be the last time we ever see it. My dad thought it was funny as shit.

Friday was the big party day. Me and all my friends went to dinner. There was about 8 of us. After dinner we went to my house where we played beer pong for a while. It wasnt as good as the last party. We were suppose to wake up and go out to breakfast but everyone left at like 2 in the morning. I didnt really give a shit.

Saturday I worked on my paper for history class. Got it done in about 3 hours so it wasnt that bad. Then I hung out with friends again. Spent about 70$ on food thanks to some "herb" we smoked. It was the highest id ever been.

SUnday i packed and had breakfast with the family and was back at school by 4.

So overall it was pretty fun. One major thing i noticed was my feelings for aaron. They came back. Whenever I was with him I just wanted to kiss him and hold him and tell him i love him. I thought about him a lot. But the minute i got back to school, i didnt care anymore. This moment is the first time ive thought about him since. But the whole thing scares me.

Bored in class

Things are different this week. Weird kid to my left talked tome today. Something about him being sick and missing all of last week. Too bad for him, he missed some important shit. Looks like the chubby kid in the front got a haircut. Makes his face look more fat. Kid directly behind him looks high. Probably smoked to make this class more bareable. Kid a few rows in front of me is named Tyler. He's probably gay. Almost every Tyler I know is gay. Just noticed the kid to my left has an ear ring. He's got a dumb face. Probably doesn't know a lot. The girl behind him looks more dressed up today. Normally it looks like she just woke up, but today it looks like she spent a while making herself look better. Probably for a boy.

Ok well I'll update u on my thanksgiving break soon.