So ive been thinking a lot about life and my future and stuff. Im done with highschool in 2 days and it just got me thinking. Thinking about my future, my past, what i wanna do with my life. Its just all coming up so fast. Like, I still dont know what i want to do for a profession. Thats something i need to figure out soon. And my love life. Like I really want to have a son, and be the most kick ass dad in the world. I wanna be able to take him to football games and coach his little league bass ball team and teach him how to throw a football or how to always be a gentleman. I wanna teach him about the birds and the bees. I wanna teach him the ways of life. But i wouldnt want to have a boyfriend. Id want a wife. Id want a normal family to raise my son. But i dont like girls. So yeah it sucks. Its probably never gonna happen unless i like, adopt. But i dont want to adopt. I want my own kid. Which really cant happen unless all of a sudden I become straight, which isnt gonna happen. Theres just so much shit about life that sucks. I dont wanna leave Aaron. I dont wanna leave my friends. I dont want to grow up.
sorry if it sounded like i was whining. its just all this stuff has been whirling around in my head for a while and i guess today it all came crashing through. Idk.