life is too fucking complicated. i just dont know anymore. Like, this aaron thing is really getting to me. last weekend i didnt sleep at all. i just fucking dont know anymore. falling for your best friend blows big time. Ive been thinking a lot about it and i think i know what my problem is. Me, being the stupid fuck that i am, considers aaron to be my boyfriend, which is why i get jealous and get upset when he doesnt touch me and stuff. And i need to fucking realize that hes not my boyfriend. And when i finally realize that, ill be better. But im never gonna realize that, because i love him too much. UGHHHHH. whatevs.
i look back at my life a few years ago and it dawns on me. Im not what i used to be. Ive changed over the years, and i wish i hadnt. Deep down i wish i had never met aaron in the first place. I hate to say it but its true. i hate him.
sorry about this sad post. ive been feeling down for a week now and im just in a bad place.
8 years ago